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THE GREEN GRAPE CHILD
A dream of a small child with a big green cluster of grapes on her back, and she was parading with it. I hoped Jim would see that. He's a grape grower who's spent his whole life in the winery business, and created a empire from it. Then the kid was following after the bus we were on, and was floating with a backpack of green grapes all over her back, and on the small girls two breast nipples was a green grape on each tip. Jim was very happy and tied a ribbon on the clusters on her back, which seemed to become a red balloon that expanded like a big tomato. (The next day I saw a full gondola of green grapes in the early morning.)
Later that day while driving loader, I almost got stuck, and later the thought "close encounter" came.
Later, "keep it down" came when digging with the bucket, and I quit early and didn't work overtime again. Am not sure what it meant exactly. Maybe to keep the bucket down, and get a full load.
Oct. 20,95
A dream of two big silver dollars, eight inches across, like a mirror of silver. The one had slightly raised dots in a thin band around the facing mirrors edge. Two were laying on a small table at my brothers, that was really my sister's house. I wanted one and was jealous. (Means I'm jealous of others that make more money.)
Later a dream vision of looking down a tunnel of dirt out a porthole, and thought there was a person standing in that circle. (My job moving dirt is over at the end of today.)
Later before awakening, saw a tan or Mexican woman in a white wedding dress or dinner gown with white gloves, and waving a glove at the big loader's bucket near the exit of the ranch gate. She was on the left and the loader was heading west (where the sun sets.) (Must mean the ranch is saying good-by, or the bride bids farewell. The ranch is the bride)

THE MOCHA KING
Later that day when driving the loader, I was thinking of the "Mocha king," of ancient Aztec grave relics. I kept thinking "Mocha king" as a idea that I just played with, and had thought of that yesterday too. When thinking that; the thought "Mocha-Dee, maiden select" came. Later realized it meant the bride of the church, and I was wed to the Mocha king. The Mocha king had many maidens. I'm not sure why the thought Mocha king kept coming so much. He was into sacrifice also I think, and was very powerful.
Later while picking figs off the ground, I got greedy, and was saying "Oh Jeeze, I'm going overboard," wanting every last fig. The thought "Harlem Globe Trotters" came. It took a while to realize that this meant "You are a big clown."

FELONIOUS MONK
Later while riding home on my motor bike, I had forgotten the Mocha king maidens name "maiden select," and became upset. The thought "Felonious Monk" came. He was a jazz musician. Maybe this means "exotic jazz" played by a monk. Am not sure what felonious means. Later recalled Mocha-Dee maiden select, and was relieved, but then forgot Felonious Monk. Later recalled that also. I had to recall every detail to be able to tell the story. Had heard the name Felonious Monk on a jazz radio show on KZYX, by chance, a while back, and it stuck with me and popped into my head a little later, but I didn't see a riddle or realize they were speaking this way, then.
Heard "Bella Abzug" when fearing a encounter with woman I perceived a threat.

LOUIS FARIKAN Oct. 21,95
Woke in the middle of night and found this song singing in my head: "Home home on the range, where the deer and the antelope play; where seldom is heard a discouraging word and the sky's are not cloudy all day." Then realized my radio's volume was turned off and everything quiet. The weather was still clear. (I turn the radio down every time a disturbing loud preacher or advertisement comes on; and sometimes forget to turn it back on. I also turn off the TV when the news, or a loud political leader or activist starts talking, and many shows where the people start laughing, or arguing and screaming, fighting, commercials and barking dogs.) What a world with so much noise and static. I even can be one of them.
A few days ago while driving the loader, graveling the bumpy road in the vineyard, the name "Louis Farricon" kept coming. Didn't know why then, but it came over and over. I heard that name on the news a few nights in a row before, but didn't connect what he was about. Found out later that he led the million man march of all black men in Washington, and was the leader to join the dark powerful people together, to march for a cause to liberate or draw public support to a group or cause in the minority. This is similar to the contactee's trying to be recognized. This was heard, while graveling and improving the road. The marchers marched on the road in Washington DC. This little clue was realized a month later.
A while back "Newt Gingrich" kept popping in my head.

THE 1897 DOOR HANDLE Oct. 22,95
Saw a image of the 1897 door handle. (The old cast iron handle from the old Garrett winery, I have somewhere.) I worked on a roofing job yesterday, on a house built in 1897, and was attracted to the girl who lived there, who rents from my boss. Hadn't even recalled that old door handle was the same date as the house my boss owned. He had told me it was built in 1897. This means that there is a record of every small detail in my life, and a intelligence is able to sort through all data and make connections and riddles. Seeing the 1897 date on the handle on the door, meant to go ahead and open the door to the lady who lives there. (As it turned out, a month or so later I asked her out, and she turned me down, but "oh well.")
Oct. 23,95
Had a good feeling and saw the blue hue changing sunburst effect behind the eyes, and then a image of a women in blue jeans walking toward me. (Later that day at collage, I saw girls in jeans.)
Later wanted to get a rock at the river, and knew I gave up that habit and felt guilty. The word "constigation" came then while driving on the freeway on the motorcycle. While loading the rock, a thought "Art Bell" of the Dreamland radio talk show, came then. Maybe means to direct my energy to Dreamlands cause. To load the rock of the story they gave, like Art Bell is doing, airing all the information.
Later the thought "Dunamus" came, after thinking I should love the girl I was interested in, and not just focus on sex.
While pulling nails, I thought to maybe wait a few weeks before calling the girl, and heard a high pitch "beep."

THE HOOPER RANCH Oct. 24,95
A dream of rolling black clouds with a red blood sky mix, moving north to south in moderate fast time laps photography. This was very realistic, and might mean the tribulation is upon us. (Red sky at night, sailors delight. Red sky in morning, sailor take warning.) "Black" as in power and big waters in the sky. "Red" as in the blood will spill when people fight over the truth as they see it.
Later in the same dream, was a party, and someone was smoking. I gave all the cigs to that person who was a partying teen guy. Then at the party, saw a post card on the wall sill, and read it. It said "Hooper ranch," like the sign at the ranch driveway, with the two eyeballs in the O's of Hooper. There was a odd square after the "H" and before the two eyeball O's, and it seemed like three "O's" at first, until I studied it closer. (• Figure 91.) That meant guilt or sacrifice maybe, and the three "O's" as in trinity, even though one was a square, it seemed it should of been a "O" also. On the cards picture was three Chinese hats of people working in a yellow wheat field with old machines like a small square paddle wheel thresher, and another square, maybe reaper cutting machine also. Either two or three small machines in all, and each run by a single person under a big round Chinese hat. It was a bright yellow gold color like a Van Gogh.
I actually saw the ranch outline before this scene, and it was on the card also somehow. There were the main roads; big trees like spots in areas; fields in random patches between; a meandering river, and maybe a lake in one area. After that, the scene then became the bright golden wheat field being harvested. The first map was in black and white. (The ranch layout is similar to a map I saw at my last tractor driving job at Ceago.)
The two eyes in the "O's" of Hooper, are like the early vision of the many sets of eyes. I had just drove by the Hooper ranch the day before, and saw the sign with the two eyes, when visiting Charley and Cathy. Cathy's brother Tiba was the foreman on the Cooper ranch, and the post card in the dream was addressed to him, and the party was at his house on the ranch, even though I don't even know where he lives in reality, or if he really lived on the ranch ever. The information in the dream is close to what I know, and even if not true, (that he lived in a house there) it fits the situation. (They will give dreams of what you think might be true, even if it isn't.)
The two eye's or hoops, (like the eye's of love from above in the early vision,) are harvesting. The third eye, I thought was a "O" at first, but then looked closer and it was a slightly warped square, is like the square threshers of the three round hats with people under them. It has become a trinity. They came with the two eye balls, and now are trying to put three in there, to harvest the ranch. They need help. We are the third eyeball in the Hooper ranch sign. The square thresher (cross or sacrifice alter.) Together we become the three hats now. (• Figure 92.) Hooper also means a "barrel maker," and this ties into the harvesting of grapes, but is maybe just a coincidence. The Hooper ranch actually grows pears and grapes, and not the golden wheat fields that were in the dreams visions.

IF I COULD WALK ON WATER
Later saw a "Y." Thought it was a symbol of a woman's sexual area, and like a trinity, but later while hiking on Bobby's hill, saw some turkey tracks of the exact same pattern. The turkey was to be sacrificed, and must mean I am to give up bad habits, or put up with people who don't believe.
Was an image of, the tin hit me on the head, and I felt a pain in the vertebra. Later the thought "surgically unrepairable cancer," meant to not lift heavy beams like I did before and hurt my back.
Later during the day, at Bobbie's new dam, I saw all the new tractors and equipment and was thinking "So many tractors; I can't believe they spend so much on all this equipment." The thought "jealousy" came right then. It must be true; I'm just jealous.
Picked a big hanging cluster of grapes to eat at Ken's. The thought "Geanalola Bridjada" came a little after that. Can't figure it out yet.
While pulling nails in old lumber, was thinking about how I had always been a wood worker and had done it a lot: Dismantling old buildings; pulling nails, hauling and stacking wood. "Earmarks" was thought then.
"If I could walk on water, would you believe in me?; My love is true." This song by Eddy Money was heard while I was stoned and drunk, feeling guilty for breaking all the rules. That is the same song I liked to think I was singing to some of the people who won't believe; and preachers who threw me out of church, or turned their backs in a snobby way. Now this same song is caught in my head, after lying and turning my back on the promises to quit the bad habits.
The next morning, was a image of a person in a car upside down, with a war helmet on, and big rocks all around, like he was totally flying with his head two inches off the ground, and still strapped in the seat, in for a major crash on the rocks. This was a message about my drinking and smoking yesterday.
Oct. 28,95
Image of two dragonflies connected, like I saw the day before.
Was awakened, and right then realized the TV was on. Right then there was a true show about a killer who blamed the aliens. He said aliens told him to kill the two women. The jury found him guilty and a liar. This was a program like "A Current Affair" or some other tabloid show. This guy actually tried to use the aliens as some kind of way out of his evil deed. What is so amazing is that I woke up exactly right then and saw that, and then went back to sleep. It seems they can make you awaken.
This has happened quite a few times before. Once when a person called in on a radio talk show about aliens, I seemed to awaken right then and hear that. There were a few other times they awoke me to a certain message on the radio. You only think you awoke on your own, but right then or a little after, the message comes.
The thought "Pictnodjewels" came while drinking orange juice in the middle of the night, when I awoke and was trying to overcome a hangover from a full bottle of wine. Pictnodjewels is a ad on Art Bells Dreamland radio show, and they are anti-oxidants like vitamin C, to help combat free radicals in the blood stream.

MY DAD IN HEAVEN Oct. 29,95
In real life, when riding bicycle, saw a old man talking to himself while walking in front of the gas station I used to work at. The thought "shadow boxing" came right then. The stations name is Eel River Fuels, and the alter joke name was Eel River Fools. This is where I felt the warm heat lamp feeling on my right forearm a year or more before the major encounter. There also was a clash noise in my head once, when working there. At the time I thought it odd, and never knew it was them doing that.
Found a full beer while collecting cans. The thought "one beer is one too much" came. That's how an alcoholic is.
Oct. 30,95
Was told in a dream with letters in writing, that said to "turn on the TV now" or something. I then awoke and turned it on. A little later, an ad said "alcohol causes violence." It meant to not drink, because when I drink I have to drink the whole bottle of wine at once, and it makes me feel mad afterwards.
Later that day biking, found a single Birkenstock sandal, and stashed it to get later. Later when retrieving it, the thought "Hebrew" came just after picking it up.
Oct. 31,95
Halloween. While picking acorns this morning, and thinking over different subjects and why some people are the way they are, the thought "Your guess is as good as mine" came. This is a saying my Dad used to use. There have been other sayings my Dad used to use, that have come (in a thought, in connection to a riddle) in the recent past. "Snap out of it" and "At the drop of a hat" are two others. My spirit dad is actually using my Dads old lines. For all I know, maybe my Dad is behind this. He had been dead three years before they came, and that might have given him time to adjust and learn more in heaven. (He had terminal throat cancer. He put a double barrel shot gun in his mouth and blew his brains out in the ocean at the furthest cape in Northern California out near Petrolia. He was a doctor and knew what it was like seeing a slow death, and he took the cheapest way out, and was cremated for a thousand dollars. It would have cost twenty thousand just to go to the hospital for cancer treatment that wouldn't help. It takes a longer time for a suicide to adjust to heaven, I've heard, but he believed in God, and was also a preacher and had gone to a seminary. He smoked and drank a lot.)
It seems that there is an "other" dad though, that has the resources of heaven. They have the best mentors and spiritual advisors available, that can reshape even the most crazy person. My Dad had unfinished business, and maybe he wanted to come back and help me, because we never got along in this world. But maybe my Dad is heading to higher places. I have always felt that Jeeze is a different person then my Dad, but he follows many of the same lines. Perhaps because that is what I know as a dad, and they pattern a similar kind of dad. He is strict, and wouldn't be a good dad if he wasn't. I'll admit I'm bad, and am a liar, but I still try to be better. Jeeze is still there for me even when I fall, but there comes a time when you know you don't deserve that, if you don't listen, and keep breaking the rules.

STEPHEN'S SONS
A dream last night of seven or more sons, and the sons were grabbing pillars of rocks stacked in tall thin wire cages. Then a scene of the dad and mom with high cheekbones, and one son was seen there smiling like the dad. A saying then, "Stephen had only one son until he met Maria" was heard, like a thought in the dream. My Dads middle name was Stephen, like the Christian Martyr who got stoned to death. Also, Maria is like Jesus's mother. My Dad was an only son, and had one sister. Then he met my Mom and had twelve kids, and his sons turned on him. They worship the God mother and stone the father. In the dream I recall the mother's face with high cheek bones, clearly, as she sat at the table, but not the father's as much. He kind of faded to the right.
I thought there was static in my head that proceeds the "beep" sometimes, but right then, I was awake, and the TV station just came on the air and the announcer stated it was on again. Could mean the dream world has stopped and the other world has started up again.
But looking at the last three events, going back to the Stephen had seven sons dream; there is a complex riddle here. "Seven" as in Proverbs 9. This might mean that I am Stephen. This is a hard one. Maybe I'm Maria, (Right when I thought this, I saw a bright blue white spot appear on the right center of the computer screen while typing this) and Stephen is God. The bride of the church is a common theme. The sons are the seven churches maybe. That's it: Stephen had one son until he met Maria. That was Jesus. The first Jesus. Maria is who brings forth the message. The word is Jesus, and each son is a church that stones the father. This needs more thought. Maybe God is Stephen, and Maria the contactee who brings the conception of the sons who are each of the seven churches. This explains the later parts of the dream where the book is set down, and then the static, and then the station coming on the air in real life after I awoke out of the dream. This could mean when they actually show up in real life.
A week ago in a small church of eight people, each person made a public speech of how God had entered their life and had small unexplained miracles. I became nervous knowing what I had to tell them, and when the one person was done, I went up there and just got into the story, and was real hyper, and told it like it is, in a very serious way. It was hard at first trying to explain, and I referred to events on TV and flying saucers. I made eye contact with some people who looked sincere, but others seemed bored. All of a sudden the preacher asked my name. I said "It doesn't matter what my name is," and got upset. He acted like he wasn't even hardly interested, because I said I'd like to draw the visions on the blackboard, and he said don't bother. A lot of preachers just want to be the preacher, and will hog the show. I'm that way, and I can't stand others who think they know it all, because I feel like an authority, and it takes a while to realize that people just can't believe some of this is real.
Last Sunday I told a person about how they came to me and are from a parallel dimension, and they (aliens) told me to tell all the churches, and how I wrote 12000 letters etc. He said "With all that energy you should find a way of serving God." I said "That's what I did, I spent 7000 dollars trying to tell all the churches. Somehow the guy didn't realize what was just said, and it all went over the top of his head or something. I'm not sure if he even heard me.
A few Sundays ago I got in a major argument with a preacher. He said "You listen to me." I said "You listen to me." We went back and forth saying that about five times, and he wouldn't let me speak. He said "You've been deceived by Satan, and I'll call the cops if you don't leave." Later, I met him at a store by chance, and he invited me back for bible study, but still wouldn't let me speak. This is like the preacher on Family Radio. He hogs all the conversation, and cuts people off and won't listen. I am the same way when it comes to telling people about the aliens, because I know brother, listen to me. They came to me personally and said to tell others. They have helped me so much, to learn about myself and become a better person, and to try to love and help others and myself.

When God led the wandering Israelites out of the wilderness, it was by a pillar of fire by night, and a pillar of cloud by day. Recall the two pillars of fire, in the earlier very amazing level three intensity dream? I forgot to write about the Bible fact, that the pillar of fire was by night. This fits saucers bright lights and maneuvers, and the cloud is also used to hide in, during the day, as in when Moses went up into the cloud on Mt. Sinai.

When they first came, all but two out of eight or ten bananas were gone. On one of the two remaining bananas, still had the little brand name sticker that said "bonito." This was on the second night.

They must have some sort of dream machine that can sort all facts and mix a riddle that focuses on a central scene or theme. There can be three or more scenes that form the puzzle. This is obvious. Some people might think the mind is capable of this, but how does one explain how a long forgotten fact is dredged up and thrown in a riddle along with a psychic dream part, a vision, or physical electric bodily feeling, enhanced emotions such as love, anger, fear, sex or well-being, or a "beep" in the ear. Also lights in the sky that do odd things, visions out of the edge of vision, small moving lights, apparitions, telepathy, and synchronized matching words (as in when reading, typing, or thinking, and a same word will match off the radio or TV, and this happens three times during one evening.) There is no doubt it is from beyond me.
When a long forgotten fact is fished out of the past and mixed as part of a riddle, it must be because it really fits the situation. But also this is giving away more of the secrets of what they really know, and are capable of. After studying how they can create dreams, it is evident that it is all logged, perhaps in the brain itself, but also could be recorded on another computer. It is like the brain is connected to a higher computer that directs the complex riddles of the dreams.
Most dreams are of only familiar facts the person knows, or a slightly warped version of that person's real life, but some dreams from awhile back were definitely out of my ordinary experience, even though they still had familiar pieces thrown in. A familiar piece is a odd little fact you recall within the last day or two, or even a psychic part you recognize later that day, or two (rarely three) days later. Once in a while they used to throw a really off the wall dream in, usually being a high intensity, or what is maybe called a lucid dream, that was more then my personal experience had ever known. The floating head dream, the magpie lemming, and quite a few others were high intensity radical dreams. These dreams are as real as real life, or even more so, in a way that's beyond what's possible. When you awake, it is like just entering another world

ANNIE JONES
Osiris the Egyptian God of 4500 BC came from a island in the sky. I read this in chapter eight of "Flying Saucers are Watching us," by Otto O. Binder. (• Note 26.) This relates to the dream of the island in the sky of (Jan.1,1995.) This is a very good book, and was written quite awhile ago, back when I was a teenager, and didn't give the subject much thought. A lot of the old books were rare anyway.
Nov. 1,95
Image of bits of broken glass. (Means to go ahead cleaning up. The pointed tip of bits of glass means to sacrifice.)
Nov. 2,95
Two rolls of black tape. (Means to patch up family relations. Two as in church and black as in power.)
Image of a baby sitting and looking up, in the small trailer's sink where my gallon water jug is always put. Had been thinking of "if I had a baby, what it would eat, or would I be able to take care of it." (Might mean it's mostly water, or that life is like water. It takes whatever form it enters. Maybe means it doesn't really cost much.)
Nov. 4,95
Image of a burr sticker plant in black plastic planter pot. The same plant I saw growing in the dry pond bed a day or two ago, and was afraid it might spread over the property. (Means to not let bad habits take hold.)
Nov. 5,95
When bicycle riding about ten this morning, and passing a grape field and seeing the new cover crop just sprouting with seedlings, the image of "Annie Jones" the bearded girl, when she was young, from the book, "Very Special People," (• Note 27.) just came like a thought in my head. I saw her the same way I had seen her slightly pouting face in the book the day before. I knew it was from them, because of the suddenness of this, and the clear thought image that entered my mind. (This is like the thought words, but is more uncommon, especially when awake and eyes open, but this has been done a few times before.) Thought it was similar to Mother Earth sprouting a beard. A day later I thought it was like me: An oddity, or bride of the church, with traits of both male and female, who grew up with a mixture of worlds. Maybe there is a deeper meaning. The book said Annie became a well adjusted society dame who married twice. The book showed another picture of her when she was grown up.

MISSING TIME Nov. 6,95
Saw a white unmarked airplane while standing in the old spiral house rock foundation. (This was during the day.) I waved a lot, and it seemed to see me and cut its motor way down. I looked again and couldn't see it, but the motor now seemed to be way further south. It was like a portion of time had been deleted from my reality. There was something odd then, because I really scanned to see it again, and the motor noise had moved very fast way south somehow. This holds a clue as to the wrinkle in time effect, and explains how they can synchronize and match the words up simultaneously when reading, or typing, and a word on TV or the radio will match the word you just read at the "exact" time. Exact to the point of perfect, and it happened three times in one night. This even happens when I am "thinking" a certain word in a thought process, and the exact same word is then spoken on radio or TV at the exact time. This is because they can read your thoughts. (This hasn't happened where the TV and radio will match with themselves, yet.) With this wrinkle in time effect they can delete the time out of my conscious, and then align it so the two coincide. There is no other explanation. They can see into the future, and so can see the out of align prospective matching words coming from either a thought word process you will be having or words on TV etc., and can then delete time, and adjust your mind so the two coincide. This airplane scene gave the clue that I suspected earlier when this was also happening a lot, after reading the book "A Wrinkle in Time." (See Feb. 9,95) When the matching words happen so many times, and it happens a lot during a certain night, or after reading a certain book with a title that's a clue, you know something's going on, and the coincidence factor is out the window. They can delete time, and you don't even know it in the slightest. There is no detectable change. This explains some of the stories I've heard of people who claimed they saw aircraft that disappeared.
A long time ago, a blimp circled right over the spiral house foundation, and started to do a spiral dive heading down. That was about seven years ago, and I thought it totally unrelated to UFO's then. It was just a local small blimp who must of liked the spiral shape, and was goofing around. I could see the small room hanging under it. At first I was waving at it, and it started to turn, and then did a rocking side to side swinging motion. Then it went into the slow spiral dive, like being in water, and then pulled out of it and left, back towards town. That was a amazing thing, but was not related to aliens I don't think, but am not sure now actually, after some of the stories I've heard.
Some of the stories are of silent helicopters and silent big army airplanes that vanish. Of course there are many UFO stories of how they can zip away or just disappear. They have ways of altering the reality of the person's mind, and probably the actual reality too.
What is amazing is that: the evening after this missing time airplane scene, I was having the words synchronizing again, at least two or three times. That's when I knew the wrinkle in time effect was what was behind this. When I read the "Wrinkle in Time" book, the same thing happened a little after that. Same words would be aligning at the exact same time, a few times. The matching words themselves were even giving possible clues. I recalled some of them. One was "father," and some weren't exactly a meaning.

THE BRIGHT MOVING ORANGE STAR
Had a dream where a girl was talking, and the thought "aliens want to hear," and all attention was focused on her. Meant to let the girl talk and not drown her with the alien stories. I met a girl yesterday and flooded her with the aliens and how they speak.
While driving bike that morning, the thought "Segorny Weaver" came. Didn't know what it meant then, and forgot who it was. Later that day, I stopped at the girl's house, and spoke of my visits with the aliens, and maybe said too much as usual. Later that day, I realized that Angela Lansbury was the woman detective on the TV mystery movie "Murder she wrote."
Later went to "Church of the Nazarene." Talked to a elder there and argued for a hour. He was a smart person but still couldn't believe. Told him even Bigfoot is unexplained, and has never been found, and seventeen books have been written about that. Told him Bigfoot is another aspect of God's plan to evangelize the world, like crop circles and animal mutilations, channeling prophecy, ghosts, angels, apparitions, etc. Told him to listen to the Dreamland radio show tonight at seven PM, and 780 on the AM dial.
Nov. 6,95
This evening, was outside looking south and saw a orange bright star moving west at a distance. It was odd and unblinking like a airplane would be. This was like the slow moving orange star that disappeared, of Sept. 30,95, but was moderately fast and a bigger bright orange, as it passed behind some tree branches, and went behind the western hills. (The idea of the sun setting in the west, and me having the feeling the book is almost done are the same. I don't know if it's related, but I have been thinking about that.)
What is weird, is that I feel I am drawn to look then, and then see it. I felt that way the other times also. Some of the other times, I had talked about others seeing lights in the sky that day, and then that same evening, I see them also. It is like someone knew it was on my mind, and then let me see them also, and caused me to look then.
Nov. 7,95
A dream image of a character like a mime with a white painted mask face, big dark round hollow eyes and dark hair. It seemed to be empty behind the eyes, with a blank expressionless face, and he was stepping out into space. Later an image of a white truck and work crew in a steep dark narrow ditch. (Saw a exact similar white truck at Bobby's, two days later. A psychic clue means they found the guy later.) Later an image of: the mask face came floating sideways like a warping cloth ghost effect, and some other parts of maybe a coat or pants. Later after awake, I recalled seeing on TV: "Bay Area Back Roads, went to Alaska" show, where two people were on the edge of a very deep dark crevasse in the ice, and looking down. (Dark as in power) I was thinking then of how very deep that must go down. This dream relates to the fact that I smoked and drank for two days, and felt guilty, and knew it was the worst. I had turned my back on all the promises made and pretended to not care anymore. Now it's time to try again to do good.
Saw a clear image of a sign that said "January 27" I think. Later that day, got a letter to re-register my scooter by Jan.16,96. It was a psychic dream a little off. Psychic dreams are always not exact, but are close in general. Maybe the number 27 has special meaning. The number 11 is seen in the difference between.
Nov. 8,95
Saw the cat's eyes, one after another. Later on TV after I awoke, saw a cat.
Nov. 9,95
A dream of smoking a joint.
The steps with soft mud on one.
A mean person chasing me called my name, but was then a nice barking dog. (Mark, Mark, like bark bark.) The scene was at the Halloween cemetery I saw the other day, where it said on a tombstone: "over my dead body cemetery, Walk In's welcome." This was a old grave stone selling lot in Ukiah, where someone made a Halloween scene. I drove my bike past there the day before. (Means to not smoke again.)
Obscure woman with one kid. (Meant to not bad rap my Mom even though we don't get along. She had twelve kids.)

I recall when younger, I would have a panic attack at the fair, or church, or public places. I also threw gravel at a truck, as a kid standing at the bus stop in Talmadge. It was like I was striking out. These might be encounter or early childhood related, but I'm not afraid anymore.
Nov. 10,95
A matching coinciding word was "teenager" on TV, and when reading John Mack's book "Abduction." This is a recent wrinkle in time they did, also like the recent white airplane that moved.

REMOTE SCENE FLASHBACK RIDDLES
An Image of the remote store in the desert on a bicycle trip (Joshua Tree State Park) came at a odd time while thinking to write notes before I forgot the notes. (Means to stock up before the chance is gone. The desert is ahead, or the mind can become a desert and the thoughts desert you. Like when Christ was in the desert, it means to stock up on water or God's word.)
This is proof of them (aliens) knowing very remote facts I haven't even thought of in a very long time. This same scene once flashed in my memory before, a long time ago, but I missed the riddle then, and what I had just thought of "before," at that time. It might have been similar to now, where I just thought of planning to take notes before I forget. (See Nov. 25, 1995.) That bike trip through Joshua Tree State Park, was six or more years ago, and that last stop at the store before the desert scene, was used as a clue in a riddle.
As I said, this is the second time they threw me that riddle, before I got it. About a year and a half ago, they gave me that scene, but then I hadn't realized how they were speaking to me in that way. It is so subtle, because it connects to a previous thought you just had, and if you miss that, and don't realize they are speaking then, you will just over-look the scene as a odd thought from your mind. (Just now while taking a note to recall the date when I wrote about this before; the word "thrown" just matched with a word on the radio's "Family bible reading fellowship." On the radio was just spoken of a Biblical story of the walls of Jericho being thrown down, and I was writing: Find where remote thought scene was "thrown" in my mind, about scenes (of the store before the desert. (Nov. 25,95) The word "thrown" synchronized, and so gives a riddle. The idea is that the walls of the old city or covenant are being torn down.
Back when I was slow in learning to catch the clues, there were a lot of scenes thrown in my mind at a certain time, (after a thought I just had that related to that thought,) and gave a riddle, but I missed it then. This is one of the most complex ways of speaking, and is proof of very remote information going way back into your life, that can be selected for perfect riddle material.
There was a scene of a river I wanted to go visit once, that was flashed in my mind after a certain thought I just had about a girl I wanted to get to know. They can actually review scenes from your whole past life, and flash you the one that best fits your previous thought, and so becomes a riddle that gives a further message. If you don't realize you're being spoken to, it will just pass by as a figment of your own imagination. It is that vague and well blended, as if coming from your own mind, because it is actually your own remembered experience.
There was another scene that always flashed in my mind, (four times off and on over a year) and with no previous connecting thought, that I could connect, except maybe I was thinking about them (aliens). A few months later, I saw it again. This was of a road I once rode motorcycle on, that cut through the woods, and connected two main roads together. There was a small lake and a hidden campsite about midway, and some people in a pickup truck were visiting us. It took me so long to see the meaning. This was in the back woods behind Lake Pillsbury, and I always wondered why I would flash on that one place. It means two roads (worlds) are tied together, and water (word) is between. When the certain scene flashes quickly, you can tell it's not coming from you, because it comes out of the blue. It's a teaching tool, and a brain exercise.
When thinking about having sex with a girl, and what about AIDs: right then on TV was spoken "protection" just by pure chance. This could possibly mean they can start your thought process at the right time to have it answered by the TV. Either this or the wrinkle in time effect is used in this way, or even a combination of both. They show so many tricks, and this is another aspect of what is possible. This happened on the same night when there was also three separate, "exact synchronized matching words."
There is such a thing as coincidence, but the chances of things happening at the very exact time needed, is proof there is something more here, especially when it happens more then once on the same night. If it was even a little off in timing it would be amazing, but the exact, and three times in a night? Something's able to do this. This has always been the biggest puzzle, as to how that's done. They must alter time. If not in real time, then in your mind at least. I kind of wore that topic out, because I want to get it clear, so when it happens to others, they won't be surprised, and will know what's going on.
Nov. 11,95
Image of the seeder like a circular lawn sprinkler.
Was thinking how they can know every fact. Right then saw an image of the old overgrown mounds of dirt in the back yard of the cabin at the coast. Realized it meant a remote location with old heaps of information in the backyard by the road. This is a example that actually explains how they can give this form of speaking. They have piles stored in the back of your house in a remote area. Your house being your mind. They have a stored record of everything.

SPEAKING WITH FACIAL EXPRESSIONS
Another form of speaking is facial expressions of characters that fit the subject. Have seen this a few times, but didn't realize it as a form of speaking at first. Once in a dream there was a very innocent girl with a totally non-judgmental air about her. She had unconditional love, and was untainted, and with a childlike innocence and trust. There was one of a girl with a contorted face, as if in turmoil. There were a few other characters I used to know from a long time ago, and each time it seemed the perfect character was chosen to fit the situation. Once was a carnival character in a dream. They can even create a dream where you think you remember a certain person from a long time ago, but was only in that dream, and not in real life. Or maybe it was from a long time ago, or even from a dream a long time ago. You feel almost like you saw that person in a past life, or in childhood maybe. The whole idea of using certain perfect characters to fit certain situations is another form of speaking, where the dream becomes very real, because the character fits the part so well. Usually the character is someone you knew, and in the dream you know them better, and can feel the essence of the dream content being portrayed by that certain person.

THE LETTER IN THE MAILBOX
"I suddenly sensed it" was thought.
Image of a white slightly cracked or used shiny polished girl's Sunday School shoe. Must mean "I've taken the first step" of learning to understand how they speak, and feel comfortable with them.
A few days ago when heading south to hit the freeway to Willits, the choppy clouds around the sun were colored like the rainbow, with a mix of colors like a oil on water effect. Have never seen this before, and was so amazed. Didn't think it unnatural then, but now wonder if it was caused by them, after hearing Zacaria Sitchin on Dreamland speak of a similar thing.
Found the book "Watchers" by Raymond Fowler at a used bookstore, (• Note 28.) and the book "Abductions" by John Mack at the library in Willits this same day. (• Note 29.) It was in the new book section.
Nov. 12,95
The thought in a dream: "now that all the wood's piled up, when are you going to finish building."
Nov. 13,95
A dream of being on Observatory Hill on our ranch, and saw an orange light down the road that moved, flashing into the woods. Then we were leaving down the old path on top, when I got the old sledge hammer head and traded one for another bigger one, and tossed the old one by the old broken John Deere tractors wheel. I got the old sledge head and was leaving, when the other person said "There it is, right behind you!" A terrible fear overcame me and I awoke then. It was an extreme fear, but I knew it was only them doing that again.
Later a dream of getting my mail. One letter I had sent was returned, and there was one small square envelope (like my square note pad.) I saw from the light shining through it, that there was a stamp in there with the face of Thoreau (like the stamps in the envelope in my father's old "Walden" book) gazing out. The thought "Let me be your psychiatrist " came right then. The small square letter was plain white with no writing on it, and I wondered where the stamp was, and then noticed it said "Three and a half cents" on the lower mid left side, printed on the envelope. (The type of envelope that is a paid for stamp already, but with no picture.) The old Thoreau stamp was actually five cents, and his face was vaguely seen on the stamp inside, with the help of the light shining through. Then I awoke.
The time I ate pot and was spinning and sick. The gun shot noise in my mind that night meant to put me out of my misery.

THE EYE IN THE SKY
Heard the song by the Moody Blues: "I am the eye in the sky looking at you, I can read your mind. I am the maker of rules dealing with fools, I can cheat you blind."
The song by Neil Young goes: "I dreamed I saw the silver spaceship shining in the yellow haze of the sun.
The song by the Byrds goes: "Hay mister spaceman won't you please take me along for a ride, I won't do anything wrong."
The song: "I'm a space cowboy; bet you weren't ready for that; I'm sure you know where it's at." This was just playing on the radio, and the others were also heard recently. The one song: "The eye in the sky," really fits, and I wonder how or where the lyrics came from. It makes a person want to straighten up their act, just knowing that. (While typing this, I just changed the radio station at five after four in the morning, and the song Eye in the sky was playing. The announcer said later that it was the Allen Parsons project who played that, and not the Moody Blues like I thought.) I really don't know how some of these coincidences happen. It happens right as I was just correcting the spelling of the word straighten.
There is another song called "Wheel in the sky keeps on turning, I don't know where I'll be tomorrow."

THE FLYING SAUCER
The one lady working at the post office said today that last Monday when coming back from Santa Rosa on highway 101 and heading up Burke hill before Ukiah, she came over the top and saw a circular object with lights flashing around the rim. Ten cars were stopped, and people were out on the road side watching. It was stationary for awhile and then headed fast toward Lake County, and was still seen stopped again at a great distance. It was dark in the center, with colored lights spinning around the outside rim. She said her arms felt prickly from the shock, and could hardly believe it, until she saw all the others watching also.
Image of a bar of soap in the piano's back, by the bottom of the sounding board beams. (Means to play the tune of cleaning up before the rains come, and cover the piano back from splashing rain.)

THE WEDDING AT THE WINERY Nov. 15,95
A dream of buying rocks from a dealer. He dumped them from a bag. Three nice deep glowing red ones for a dollar. Someone else was watching and I was afraid he might want the nice ones also. I pulled out the bag nuggets with dark porous sponge pock mark holes. They were gold, and heavy like lead. I planned on buying them when he said five for a dollar, but then looked back and saw they were now gone. Thought maybe it was during a missing time episode, the guy or someone took them. There was no other way, because I was there all the time. (This was actually a missing time episode in a dream. This reminds me of the very early dream of looking in a big rectangular mirror in a red walled restaurant, and seeing a girl dressed in red, sitting at a table, and when I turned around, she just wasn't there.)
Saw a scarlet (like my red coat and pants) old hard back book with gold writing long-ways across the back, with unreadable shimmering three groups of words. The center line was a little longer and "parallel dimensions" was thought then, while trying to read the unreadable words. A thought "Barnes and Noble is cheaper."
Saw an image of two horizontal scratch marks meaning "equals" near two bolts on a scarlet anodized support bracket at a right angle to, and supporting a upright antenna pole, also of a light red galvanized coating. (Red, like the warm winter suit I was wearing yesterday riding bike.)
(While retyping and editing this, and fixing the word "scarlet" and "red," trying to decide if they are the same color, and how it relates to sacrifice, the smell of sweet cannabis buds just flashed in my mind. This is another form of speaking they do often, that I overlooked, and often miss, not even catching the riddle or writing it down. They can do this with any smell or taste. They use the smell of shit, when I'm editing, as a way of telling me what really stinks, and is not acceptable, when I'm too critical or judgmental of others. They used the smell of vinegar once also.)
Heard "The outer circle" and then saw a vague image of a smoke or vapor ring around the moon or sun, but not that bright in the middle. Only a vapor center. The thought "There is still work to be done," meaning to finish the book. (This last dream image is part of the previous two: the red book and the antenna. The outer circle must mean the waves of the antenna broadcasting.)
Saw myself in a white poofy dress with a revealing front, like a girl attracting sex.
Later was walking to a fancy wedding party in a revealing dress and was slightly embarrassed. Saw people partying in the shady trees, sitting around. One person: Bobby, was up in a tree with a beer glass, and watching. I walked down a back road trying to avoid, but knew I had to go back. (It was just like a scene where we used to have a lot of weddings at Fetzer's winery, during the last half of my life.)
An image of: on the back road and "medicine man's cave on the mountain is way up in the background." I saw a horse on the wrong side of the fence, that looked to be ready to fly or jump back over. (My back is toward medicine man's cave now, and I'm leaving the direction of the party. The horse is on the left side of road. It would be on the right if I were heading back.) Its lower ankles seemed to appear to bend or flair out like it wanted to fly back over. (Must mean it wants to harvest the grapes, because there is a big vineyard over the fence. In real life this is true, as is also the mountain cave. This wedding scene ties into the earlier images of broadcasting.)
Found the scarlet (purple) cloth belt on the road yesterday while riding in a similar red suit. (This must relate to the first dreams.)
Saw the wedding pictures on TV's "Extra" show, the next day, and a woman in a frizzy white revealing gown was doing a photo shoot for playboy, the day before her marriage. (A psychic connection from the dream last night, means the marriage will take place in the future.)
The color red was a clue from the day before, relating to the first dreams. The wedding scene had the psychic clue the day after. (Must mean that first you are sacrificed and then become a bride of the church.) The third scene is the horse ready to harvest the grapes, with the medicine mans mountain cave in the background. This paints a picture when all clues are fit together. Starting with the three glowing red rocks, then the red book dream sequence, and ending with the wedding and harvest, the job isn't finished until the message is delivered, and the wedding takes place, so the grapes can be harvested.
Can you imagine what kind of complex computer or mind could organize all these random facts? I know it's not coming from my imagination. The glowing red stones are a recurring idea that has been used before, going all the way back to the red garnets my father found out in the Arizona desert when I was a baby. This idea was seen in the Buddha boy dream and a few others. The horse symbol is a odd clue that just fits the story well. I see horses every day riding bike, and whinny at them, but I caw at the crows and whistle at birds too. In the dream, I haven't been on that one section of road, or at the winery ranch house wedding scene in a long time. Those scenes were pulled out of my old memory banks because they fit the story perfectly, just like the horse. (There is a old myth about a horse with winged feet that must fit with further meaning. It is true that they even use old myth symbolism that I don't understand yet.)
Went to the bookstore in Ukiah yesterday (This was before the dreams of last night) and in the new age section, saw many new books on UFO's, and most were written this or last year. Was a little worried my story wasn't worth while, with so much other stuff out there. Was also worried the prices were too high and nobody would buy. This explains the thought "Barnes and Noble is cheaper," that I heard. This is one book chain selling Family Radio's book "1994? Are you Ready?." Brother Camping would name all the chain stores selling his book, to people who called in on the "open forum" talk show. Other chain stores he mentioned were Walden books, and B Dalton. The library won't stock the new UFO books, because they claim a lack of money, and some haven't caught on it is real or important yet.
After reading most of John Macks book "Abductions," it appears most people's stories are related to the aliens wanting them to be a representative to tell others. This explains the dreams last night. It's time to work on the book again.
Talked also to the "Bible book store" yesterday, and argued with them. They said "It's demon's and you should study the Bible instead, and if you look into that stuff, you will be misled." I said "I didn't study it much at all, until it happened to me, and you need to study the signs and follow the rules of the Bible and become apostate." I became more and more insistent, and the more they argued the more I said "You've got to believe me. We talked about God's elect and the Christ syndrome; the first born as spoken of in 1: Thessalonians 4. I said "Where's the UFO books?," when I first walked in. I told her "Everyone is selling the gospel and it's the American way." Tried to explain how they (aliens) speak in dreams, but they didn't care or understand. Said that "In the Old Testament, God spoke to his people in dreams and visions, and that's how the Bible was written, but if someone claims that today, nobody will believe." Maybe I had them unsure in the end.

BRACAS BRAIN Nov. 16,95
While riding the bicycle back from town at about four thirty, the thought "peroxide" suddenly came. Was puzzled and not able to connect it with anything just thought or seen. Then I looked to the right and saw the grape field covered with a dusting of lime, that made it look a eerie glowing white. It took a while to connect, that peroxide is used to dye hair white. (Recall the bearded girl thought of Nov. 5,95.) This is part of the riddle. When I saw that, I also was looking out over a vineyard, but it was down the road a little ways further. Can you believe that this even fits into the idea that some of my hair is turning gray further down the road of life? I only saw this extra clue, when doing the final editing, and rethinking the "setting." That is why I try to give every last fact. Can you imagine what kind of computer is capable of organizing all these facts, and pinpointing the perfect riddles, and then respond at the right time. The fact they have a time warp, and can see into the future, gives them plenty of time. They see over the horizon of time.)
Nov. 17,95
Half asleep before awakening, an image of being baptized with a splash of water. Image of baby's hand grasping out. Can't recall the circumstances, or previous thoughts. Something about casting off sins.
Later while riding bike back from town, was thinking about the new girl I don't even know at all hardly, and just have her phone number. "Uncharted waters" came as a thought right after that.
Then was thinking about how they are speaking with thoughts, like they just did. The thought "Brocas brain" came right then. (As in the book by Carl Sagan called Brocas Brain.) I'm not sure what it means yet, and will go to the library and find it.
Passed the church rummage sale where I told some people earlier about alien contact, (Earlier, one girl was chuckling at the others like I was flipped, and one guy walked away.) and was thinking about how I had kept being so serious about it to them, and then the thought "commentator" came.
One night was a image of streaks of grease had run out on some old piece of machinery. Then a image of my red scooter sitting in the tall dried grass, like it was broke down or out to pasture. (Thought it meant to grease the scooter, because it had been a long time.)
Then was a image of the big rock, and a saying "I shouldn't have lifted that rock." (Means to not hurt my back anymore.)

LADY IN RED Nov. 17,95
Was riding bike this morning past the bend in the river bridge, and thought of the little fish in the shrinking water hole, hoping the small rain shower helped a little, when the thought "piecemeal" came as I crossed the bridge. The big mountain was looming right in the background then, just by chance.
A little later down the road, the song "Lady in red" started going through my head, over and over. I even had my red coat on then.
Earlier this morning while cresting at the top of the hill, the thought came: "Well Jeremy, how's your mother?" "Dad,... I think she's in love." "Oh really!" This is the "Tasters Choice" commercial, where the woman is in love with her coffee. I had called the girl last night and she said she didn't have time for a date. Like the commercial: she was in love with her coffee. That was the riddle. (This is actually the first time I figured out that commercial. I thought she was in love with the guy. This is how slow I am. That is proof I can't create these riddles.) While writing these notes on a paper towel at the Lyons club park, a crow dropped a walnut on the blacktop with a "CRACK." It flew down to pick it up, but then left it, and I went over and ate half; leaving half.
The main verse of "lady in red," goes "Lady in red is dancing with me."
When at the top of a hill and a thought comes, it means it's a higher thought you haven't got yet. And it is true, because I didn't realize the meaning of that commercial before, until then. I always thought the woman was in love with the guy, and they (aliens) knew that, and that is why I heard that at the top of the hill.
At a "right angle" or "bend," water hole in a river, it is also a special place. Right angle being where two worlds meet, and the water hole there is the spoken word from the spirit. Water is life. A big rock is usually also there at a bend in the river. Where two rivers or roads meet, there is a cross or three toed bird track. Maybe that is one reason why birds were ritual sacrifice animals.
The day after a rain is when the last walnuts try to fall, and that's today. That's amazing how that crow dropped that nut today. I'll have to go to the secret abandoned walnut tree later today.
The turkey is a three toed bird of sacrifice, and this is a symbol in his foot, (path) where two worlds meet to become one. (I'm typing this on Thanksgiving, and even saw a flock of almost twenty wild turkeys fly across the road today, from one hill to another, when coming back from Thanksgiving dinner at a friends. I don't claim the spirits are responsible for this, and I have seen them crossing the road before, but it is amazing.)
While in town on my bicycle, I was stopped at a stoplight. "Get off my cloud" came as a thought. I couldn't connect it to any previous thought or present scene. Then when the light changed, a dog started barking from a motor home. I know it's related, because I argued with my mother again last night about the dogs barking all the time, and was upset again because she thinks it's funny a pack of dogs ran me out of the ranch and bark at people, and bark at night. It can ruin your life being angry all the time. That's why I didn't go to thanksgiving there.
This is another angle on the telepathic thought, that was heard at the stoplight. It's now an event in the near future, that will relate to the thought words. I want the dogs off my cloud in the future, or they want me off theirs. Being at the stop sign is maybe coincidence, but could fit the scene. In the peroxide thought, it also took a moment before I looked over and saw the lime dusted field. Means my hair is becoming white in the future, and was also tied into the earlier Annie Jones image of Nov. 5,95, (meaning the "bride" or me, is the new grass growing.) In the same way a psychic clue in a dream sequence riddle will relate to a future event, so also in this telepathic (while awake) way of speaking. If the connecting clue is in the future, it is a event that will be played out in the future. If before; it is a event from before (in real life) that ties into the next part of a ongoing unfolding message.
Later while riding home, was thinking of all the humans, and how people are busy doing this and that, and what they regard as important, and how they don't realize so much about the other world. "Ship of fools" was thought right then.
A dream last night of two headlights up in the air, (like I read about in a UFO book at the bookstore.)
Also, while in the bookstore, a buzzing noise outside suddenly stopped, and I thought I had a flashback of a humming that was a calming comfortable feeling. When it stopped, I felt upset and alone or exposed in some way. This has been felt before. In this case, I was even looking at a UFO book, when the humming was from some machine from across the street. It is like being so comfortable and used to the vibration, and when it stops, I feel upset and taken away from that good feeling.
Nov. 22,95
While reading and typing last night, there were words that connected at the exact same time from the TV. The wrinkle in time effect again. Once the word was "begin;" once "exact," and once "time," were three I recall. There were a few other words and some with a slight time lag. But these three matched at the "exact" time on the TV, and while typing and reading. It can also do it from the radio sometimes. What is amazing is that the words even hold a riddle that explains the process happening. Some of the earlier words I forgot.

Told Pat about how they speak with the thought words. He said "Why are they screwing around with you, and why don't they just come out and be real?" I said "It's just the way I'm learning how to communicate, and is just the way it is." He said "When I was younger I didn't want to have to believe in Jesus, because I wanted to know God myself, and why don't they come down so we can see them?" I said "Maybe people would be too much into witchcraft, and trying to speak with them, and not taking care of living and working on the earth. God has his reasons. God spoke to his people in the old days and gave his word. Then the plan was to have Jesus die, and the new plan was to not speak as much as he used to. People were to just be satisfied with that, but now they're coming back and are speaking again trying to prepare the people for eventual total contact, so they won't panic."
The mission of Jesus and what he taught, and the dying on the cross, was a way for people to get closer to God, and also gives a way out of sin and guilt. The rebellious nature of man and his need for forgiveness and a loving father, was played out in the story of Jesus. It was the perfect therapy for all sinners wanting to be closer to God, and his teachings. Other parts of the Bible are a guide to living a better life, and helping us see pitfalls.
There were mysteries withheld from before the foundations of the earth, and still obviously are. People have to carry on, and get on with the job of taming the earth. Now that that's done, we need help to clean up the mess. Welcome space brothers.

HANOVER
Yesterday the thought "Caterina Witt" came, and then I was puzzled. Then the thought "Your skating on thin ice" came. I looked back and saw I had just walked through the big circle of charcoal fragments where a big brush fire had been last year. (Means to stay away from bad habits, or I will be transformed.)
When riding bike today, I saw the new guard rail they just put in by the cliff near the river. I thought "Oh, it goes all the way to here." Right then, the thought "Hanover" came. Hanover New Hampshire is where I lived as a kid from maybe four to six. This must mean the guard rail wall of repressed memory (of when they first came) goes all the way back to Hanover.
I remember when a child in Hanover, and was playing down a hill on a road shaped like a "U" that connected to the upper main road. There was a rooster up there that wanted to attack me, and every time I went up the one road, it would be there. Then it saw or heard me coming up the other, and ran over before I could get away. I went back and forth a few times, and finally gave up and was trapped for a while. I don't recall how it ended. I still can't recall any actual encounters from long ago, and don't even know if it happened then, but that is a time I always think of; maybe because it relates to that, or possibly it even did happen then. I have always had residual feelings, and have never tried hypnosis. They (aliens) made me relive some shocking encounters and have made me face the fear over and over again, to the point where I feel calm and pretty much stable. Sometimes there is a anger feeling, but the constant fear is almost gone.
When I heard "Hanover," by the railing, the river was down on the one steep right side of the new railing, and the road on the other. Maybe part of the surrounding scene was by chance, but the water is turbulent in the winter time, during the time of visitation, as is spoken in the Bible. It says there will be tribulation and relates that to the struggles of winter. This is in Revelation and Daniel. There is much metaphor in the Bible, and looking back at it with a open mind, to what's coming upon the earth, one can see that it fits. First one has to believe what people tell them about what came to them.
Later, while riding on the thin white line on the side of the road, the thought "straight and narrow" came. (Means, follow clean living.)
Later was worried about a truck behind me. "The thought "endangered species" came.
Newt Gingrich is a speaker in the house of representatives. This explains the riddle awhile back.
A dream this morning of a big wide road headed north. There was one wooden fence post in the way on the side going through the junk yard. What is amazing is that I saw a bent metal reflector post later that morning, laying on the side of the road under, behind the new guard rail they put in, where the thought "Hanover" came. This might mean there is still obstacles in the way, caused by the wall; or as a result of the railing, I create bad habits that are sticking in the clear road. That obstacle was on the right hand side where I was also later riding the straight and narrow white line. In the dream, the scene was a old wooden fence post with wire on it, as the straight road went through the old junk yard site on our ranch. It is amazing how they cover every area.
The fact that a psychic clue shows a similar clue fact in the "future," means "I can expect to struggle with obstacles in the road as a result of the barrier going back to childhood." The junk yard in the dream might represent alcohol or drugs I used as a shield to hide from the repressed memories. That is why the junk yard scene with the wood post sticking out as a obstacle in the straight road, and the later real life railing scene with the metal post laying under it, are the same. I used substance abuse as a way to block out the pain and buried turmoil. I don't blame the aliens; I had a rough childhood anyhow, and that is why I can integrate the visitation phenomenon. That is why I know and trust them so well. They came to me in a time of trouble, and I clung to them. The two sides of being a contactee are: where you love and trust them, and where you are frightened of them. Both are necessary when they finally wake you up to the subconscious. You have to face it head on, and overcome the fear. I have read of other contactee stories, and a lot don't seem to know and trust the aliens as much as I do. Even though I have gone through fear, I don't hold any resentment, and see it as a honor. So many people speak against them, so it seems that every relationship isn't the same. There is so much many people don't understand. They (the aliens) know everything. When you read the old UFO books, the author says they are studying the planet to learn more about earthlings. The truth is they know everything already. It's amazing.
There is a new song out, that goes: "What if God was one of us, just a stranger on a bus, trying to find his way home.

A TIGER JUMPING OVER CRIMSON GRAPES Nov. 23,95
Image of small mountain peak on Boonville road.
Image of tiger jumping over grape rows on a vineyard terrace hill.
Image of crimson red, forming on the outer skin on a cluster of green grapes.
After Thanksgiving at a friend's house, I drank too much wine. Before falling asleep, saw image of a computer "tools" symbol. Then a image of a hand saw. Means to cut out over drinking.
At first I thought the tiger jumping over the vineyard rows on the hill, and the crimson splashed green grapes, meant that blood was spilled from greed in our family, over the wine business. That was not really the reason I didn't want to go to Thanksgiving this year, but I thought that's what it meant at first. It's because of the dogs. My mother doesn't care that the dogs drive me crazy. I'm just lucky to be able to live here without paying rent, and have no right to pick on dogs. Although I have been jealous in the past, that I can't be part of the winery, it's because of the dogs and others reasons, like I don't get along with my mother, and there are so many other people involved, that I'm just overwhelmed.
I thought the tiger and blood images related to that, but the day after Thanksgiving, I saw a tiger jumping over a field on a computer in a TV commercial about Compaq computers, and then realized it was a psychic connection dream going a full day and a half into the future. I had been typing all night last night, and the last four nights on the computer, and this riddle actually meant that the tiger is harvesting the grapes (on the mountain vineyard) over the words typed on the computer. This story is like the tiger jumping on the grapes, (or the people who read it) and the green unripe grapes are starting to turn crimson on the outer edges , as if from a tiger's attack. The long (full day and a half) psychic part, means that it will happen in the future. (Also see June 15'95.)
It has happened a few times before, where I will misunderstand a dream, and think they are trying to show me my fault, (as when I at first thought it meant I was jealous of not being part of the winery) but find out later that I created the misinterpretation because it was a possible truth. In other words, they can actually throw out a double meaning, that at first makes you a little mad, but then later you realize that you jumped to the wrong conclusion, and the riddle was actually something totally different. This has happened maybe three times and is rare. I have the feeling they can do that in order to teach me I'm quick to assume people are out to get me, and am paranoid. It is true they have been critical to teach me my faults, and I have been jealous of the winery, but this is a example of a perfect timing of a possible double meaning riddle that can fool you and show you more about yourself.
The first image of the small mountain peak in the Boonville road area, that came right before the tiger image, is the first part of the riddle, in that there are many small mountains on the way to Boonville, and we (the contactee's) are the small mountains trying to spread God's word. God is the big mountain and we are the many small ones. This same mountain image on Boonville road was given a long time ago (Jan. 28,95) but I missed the true meaning of it then, thinking it only meant God's mountain: (Just like I missed the tiger and bloody grapes image this time) because I didn't include the small mountain image before that, as being part of the riddle. There are usually three parts to these dream riddles. The other overlooked fact is the idea of the lion cub that is licked into life by the father. This idea is in the Bible, and I think it even relates to the apostle Mark, which is my name. I also had an earlier image of a baby cat being licked by a big cat, and the wet fur turned crimson like blood. (See June 15,95) The idea of the cat jumping over grapes on a hill terrace, must be tied into the first part of the riddle: "the small mountain peak," that is the grapes, or the person licked into life. We are the many small peaks. We are the people who believe and tell others.

THE BIG ROCK PILE Nov. 24,95
Was laying in bed thinking of my back, and how it hurts sometimes, and I can't lift things like I used to. My body is getting burned out and needs to be taken better care of. Later an image of the big fire scarred oak tree in the back yard, its leaves off and with a white haze around the limbs. Later that day I cut my hair, and saw it was turning white in areas on the sides. It is also autumn now.
When stepping outside this evening at a little past six thirty, to go up to the winery to borrow the computer, I was just heading up the path, and when first looking toward the dark west sky, I could of sworn there was a bolt of lightening that streaked at a slight angle left toward the ground. It looked artificial and not as bright as a real one. It is a totally clear evening, and no thunderclap came. I had the feeling it was a altered reality sighting. This was a day of renewed vigor and desire to finish and rework the writing.
Nov. 27,95
In the book "The Watchers" by Raymond Fowler, (• Note 30.) on page 73 and chap. 5, it tells of the cleft in the rock where the two Canadians: a man and woman observed the craft in the lake with the ten entities on top, and the green hose put in the water. This is like a biblical saying of "the cleft in the rock" where the water flowed forth. There was a deer at the opposite shore behind the UFO. This cleft in the rock is also a female fertility symbol it seems.
Saw a late night old space invaders movie on TV a few nights ago, while typing late at night. There was another one a week or so ago. Some of the old movies are being played again, but seem to only be on very late at night. The one movie was about: all the people were praying inside the church, trying to get God to save them, and then the church was hit with a light ray from a saucer outside, and people broke into a panic, and the walls were cracking. In the other movie, at the end, they showed aliens in silver tin foil space suits with a dark, big curved piece of glass across the eyes, and they were pulling levers on a control panel.
Yesterday, thought I saw a rabbit on the roadside, but was only a clump of grass. "Pull a rabbit out of a hat" was thought then.
While half asleep this morning, a dream image of a plump butt, and kind of trim. Meant I had very much material for the book now, having just typed the last big part last night, and need to edit it. (Had been riding bicycle a lot, and hoped to look trimmer.)
Scene of the old scooter I didn't need and almost bought when driving through San Francisco two years ago, flashed in my mind while typing. (Meant to edit an unnecessary part while typing.)
A scene of the big rock pile on Long Valley road, I visited six or more years ago, popped into my head, out of the blue, while typing and just thinking of all the stories of dreams as evidence I now had. At first I couldn't figure that out, and thought it meant maybe a grave, and I'm dead in the project.
Later an image of a special rock I got on the big mountain once. Realized it meant I have many rocks as evidence, like the big rock pile small mountain on Long Valley road.
(This is the new way of speaking now, while totally awake. This has been done before a few times. As I said before, it was very hard to recognize this at first, and I missed many riddles, even though back then I would recall odd, long ago scenes just flash into my head, I wasn't able to connect them to "events just thought ." I did catch a few though. They gave up on this method for a long time, but now are showing it again.)
The other new way of speaking was the telepathy words, or "recent" thought images in connection with a present event. Now it's "past long ago" image events that connect in riddles with what you happen to be thinking or seeing at the time.
This is further proof of mind reading and knowledge of all events in your life, and the ability to scan and sort all possible riddle material, and flash a memory in your mind in an instant, after your thought process relating to it. The hard part is connecting it with a event that "just" happened," and then being able to see the riddle. That can be very complex sometimes. It can be just the smell of something that pops in your mind, or a long ago scene. The "setting" of the scene, and other related facts of the scene, and how you related to it at the time, is the symbolic imagery you have to connect. Remember this, so when it happens you will know. This is the most elusive or hidden way of speaking, and the most complex.

PSYCHIC DREAMS CONNECTED TO THOUGHTS
Can you believe that I've even had a few psychic dreams that were connected to "thoughts" I was thinking the next day. I know this sounds like, "Oh, you probably thought that because you dreamed it," but this is not true, because I didn't figure out the riddle until I thought of the same subject, but was coming from a totally different angle at the time, and had even forgot the dream, and lost the teaching connection, thinking it only a vague odd dream that comes sometimes, and is not worth writing, because it's so abstract, and hard to explain. You know it is a true psychic dream when it hits you, and is entirely possible considering everything they can do. The fact it is in the future shows the way to be later. In the certain instance, I was thinking sort of bad thoughts about a person, and then recalled the dream last night, that showed me in a round about complex way, the old saying of "What you see in your brother's eye is in yours." It was only then, I realized the true meaning of the dream, and how the other connected dream of the same person I was thinking about was related. Even though I had recalled the dream earlier, I had missed the meaning until then, and then saw it was a psychic dream. This has happened once, and maybe twice before, but was so vague to explain. I just had a feeling that a thought connected to a psychic dream. This is entirely possible, because they know every thought you will think, for three days into the future, at least.
Had the cigar smell while typing, (like the short cigar butt I puffed on at Henry's the other day, but didn't inhale.) This meant to cut it short in the long drawn out part of typing. I smelled that right when thinking it was too complicated with unneeded words. It takes a while to catch on to the riddles, but like other ways of speaking, you have to look at the setting or picture in the simplest way.

CHARDONNAY CAKE Nov. 28,95
The song on the radio this morning sang "Stay away from run around Sue." Right during that, saw a quick image of the section of Old Adobe road heading east near Petaluma, past the old Adobe Mission. Then recalled all the dead skunks I had seen on that road a few years ago, when delivering wine once. There was a dead skunk every half mile, and I saw maybe ten or more. Didn't know what it (the riddle) meant at first. Then an image of when I drove in a circle (run around) on my scooter in a friend's driveway about a week ago. I was going to visit him, but he wasn't home. We used to smoke. (Meant to stay away from skunk weed. She had been with every boy in town.) The difference in how long ago, (apart) the "two different scenes" happened, is great, (a few years) but they fit the riddle perfectly.
Awhile back was an image of the small town in Oregon I saw in a dream, like on a map. Was going to possibly go up there with a friend to get a truck. (Later it turned out it didn't happen, but was only on my mind a lot, and I was nervous, because it was the day before Thanksgiving with a lot of traffic and was maybe dangerous.)
Dream image of my name on the right of a computer screen. Was like the "Chardonnay cake writing," Macintosh word project, someone had left on the screen, that I saw the day before. (The riddle is that my story is like a green grape cake, like the grape child of (Oct. 19,95) or even the recent tiger and green grapes turning crimson dream sequence. The idea of a cake, the circle, and celebration, all fit the riddle of being one of God's preachers that were licked into life, and now is ready to be eaten.
Image of the writing, like on the computer, with a group of maybe five words underlined, and they blinked off (out) and on. At first, thought it meant I had some bad writing to remove, and was a little upset, and not sure what writing it was. Later that day I was reading some old writing from early on, that was printed in a small newspaper, and the typed words were underlined where it said "So don't you fail to show them all the love I have for you," speaking of a song that played on the radio after the amazing swooshing, swishing feeling, and the squeaking in the room by the sink, on the night of Aug. 27,93 at 1:45 am.
The "blinking words" was a psychic clue that meant the message will be seen and done in the future. Maybe the blinking meant I mistook the meaning at first, or maybe to just make it look special
A few days ago, was thinking bad thoughts about a person, and "Sobibor" came as a thought. Sobibor the death camp. (Meant I was a killer.)
Last night I was thinking bad thoughts about another person again. "Sobibor" came again. I try to not be like that anymore.
In the book John Mack's "Abduction's:" (• Note 31.) In the third case study of the women, the lady tells of when she saw herself as the painter who was repainting the mural of a Egyptian goddess in the pharaoh's tomb. The symbolism is deeper then explained in the book. The paint was faded and she was reincarnated as a man who was the king's special painter to put the color back into the message of the goddess who was to serve the pharaoh. This means that the woman is changing gender in the same way a man becomes the bride of the church. In both ways the person is wed, or a servant to God, and lifting up the name. The painter even crushes an imported special blue rock from the enemy to make the paint.
In Vallee's book "Challenge to Science, (• Note 32.) there is a case study and a drawing, of a UFO hovering over a bridge and river in the center of two steep rock cliff sides. This is like the cleft in the rock case again, and with water running out. The idea of the Hebrews putting small folded notes in the cracks of the ancient wall of Jerusalem erected by Herod the great is the same. They are messages to God. The bridge is another clue that ties the two sides, maybe. Many other sightings are over water, or on a road, a railroad track, or over a church or school.

MOSES LEADING HIS PEOPLE
I finally realized the meaning of the purple aliens head vision out of the corner of my right eye, while sitting at the lake waiting for the catamaran sail boat ride. (This was early on in the story.) Back then I thought it must be my hybrid alien son, because the eyes looked a lot like mine, being small and narrow set. There was also a compassionate look as it gazed back at me. Now, a few years later, I know it really meant that I am to play the role of a messenger. That is why the setting was the perfect place, and why it happened then. It was like the Red Sea, and Moses leading his people. I took on the look of a alien. The two colors of red and purple mixing in a swirl before it took shape was the passion I had for them and the project, to do the mission and tell the people. This true meaning was missed all this time.
Back then, I thought it was my hybrid son looking back at me with love, and that it meant the aliens were like the whore that was in love with the world, and that is why I saw the vision then. It was the perfect setting by the big lake. It was also the perfect setting for the other meaning, which must also be true.
I also missed the meaning of the Red Sea dream scene at first. I thought the guy waving the cane was related to the whore sitting by many waters, and being in love with the world, (as spoken of in Revelation) but was actually a picture of Moses parting the waters of the Red Sea, as talked about in the Old Testament, where God chose Moses to lead his people out of Israel to the promised land. The act of using the rod to part the waters is similar to bringing about a change in people's minds, or to create a pathway to follow.

In the Alagash Abduction, the man didn't recall until seven years later. Seven is used in the Bible as the time it will take to rebuild the temple. The theory is that the aliens will release the memory of people at a certain time, when the time is right. They can track the certain person, and have records of all information. (I spoke of the Alagash four earlier, when I saw them on the Joan Rivers show.)

THE WAY HOME
Way back before it all started, maybe three or four months before they came, I read about the conquest of Mexico, by Cortez, written by a soldier who was in the army that marched overland. (• Note 33.) That book was so shocking, actually hearing it first hand from a person that was there. I couldn't put that book down, and it was like I was there. It scared me as to how brutal and precarious life was. People died right and left, and odd chance, trickery, and boldness drove them on. Once they went so far into it, there was no turning back. That was the most shocking book I ever read, and it is odd I read that a little while before the main encounter. A more advanced civilization came in contact with another. Even though their motives were for God and the Queen, and to convert them to Christianity, and tear down the idols, they were driven by greed for gold and glory. The main reason they succeeded, was because they got the neighboring outer cities with masses of people who hated the government and policy of Mexico city, that extended heavy taxes and took their women and even sacrificed people to the Gods. The trauma, death and blood shed made me face death. Could they (gods) have guided me to read that then?
Also, the fact that I started reading the New testament starting at "Acts," as in "the acts of the apostles," a week before they came, is significant. It was a small paper back new testament book called "The Way Home." On the cover, there was a sun, just on the horizon, with light rays reflecting out in a cross pattern. I really got into reading that, and felt like it was speaking "directly" to me. It kept saying "you are apostle for Christ." I tried to understand every verse to the fullest. It pulled me in, and I couldn't put it down, and would read some each evening, all the way up to the night they came.
Earlier that evening, I was reading through Galatians, Ephesians, and Philippians, and all the strange things started happening, but somehow I wasn't even alarmed. There was constant squeaking on the roof, and me thinking it must be the damp weather. I don't know why I wasn't shocked or scared at some of the other things that happened. Then I felt real tired, but wanted to read some of Colossians, and not waste the last coals in the fire. I warmed my feet over the dying coals, and had read about only half way through Colossians, before going to bed.
Later recalled the nice spiral feeling, and it all just happened. That night I took the virtual reality saucer ride, and later everything else. Those three nights really changed my life for the better, and a whole new lost world showed up, that was like a lost half buried reality of long lost friends, breaking into reality. You know you're not crazy, but this is so shocking, and at the same time, it seems like you've been here before. You know these people, but they're coming out of thin air, and never really show up physically, but can speak in other ways. It is hard to explain telepathy, and induced emotion, but you know they know everything about you, and have known you from way back.

A LARGER VIEW
While typing about the rat's nest and stained tee shirts, the smell of dope smoke flashed in my head
While typing and getting tired, and thinking "I'll stop after this page," the image of the park on the road to Lakeport came. Realized that was where I stopped on a motorcycle ride, when taking a rest stop. This was maybe a year ago.
Was thinking that maybe I shouldn't tell everything, or cut out some parts of the story that made me look bad. A image of picking my nose and eating the boogers came.
Nov. 29,95
While working on sheet rock, maybe twenty miles from home, was thinking how for eleven bucks a hour, I wasn't working very hard today. An image of the lost wallet on the hill flashed in my head. (Meant my boss lost his wallet. I found someone's lost wallet way up in the back roads, about maybe ten or more years ago.)
Was thinking of the information they gave me. Then came a image of the forks, where three roads meet the one, at the top of the lumber road. The image then seemed to look down the one right fork that led to the mountain look-out, we went to when younger, to see the whole valley and beyond into Ukiah valley. (Meant they gave me a larger view.)
Later that night while typing, I was re-typing about the buzzing in the solar plexus area, explaining how they made me relive sperm extraction, and was thinking of how they gave me so many secrets that few have been given. Right then flashes a quick thought image of lake Mendocino, by the boat dock, and the road there that went out to the side when the water level was way way low. People would drive on the lake bottom then. (Must mean the water of life has been moved.)
Two words matched up again the other night, while typing, and on the TV. The word was "think," and I forgot the other. Once the word was "time," and one time long ago, the word was "Father."

THE DRAGONS LAIR Dec. 1,95
Before falling asleep, imagined I was visited by people who were them, and had feelings of wanting to fight them or punch them out. Felt guilty and wondered if this was coming from me or just induced.
The next day, woke up and recalled a image of "the dragons lair." (A remote place where someone built a house on a rock cliff overlooking a deep canyon. I had driven up there about two years ago, when following a very remote road on a steep mountain, and saw the dragon painted across the side and back of a old yellow Chevy pick-up truck there.)
Then the image of the steep cliff there, and if I fell. Then the thought "Accident's can happen, don't fall off."
When at work yesterday in another remote similar area, I tried to imagine what it would be like to jump off a big rock cliff, and was only pretending the feeling of hopelessness and depression I've felt in the past, but would never think of doing it seriously, and am much healed now of the past. This means the dragon's lair is God's place, and to be careful. You have to be strong to overcome the dragon's power. The dragon's lair scene reminds me of the monkey staring out into the sky at the floating dragon. This ink drawing is on the warped square, or diamond shaped paper Chinese lampshade at Henry's.
Later an image of flipping through a thick book's pages, like the one I have on world religions.
A image of my many white plastic storage buckets. (Means I have enough material and money now to make the book. Later that morning, I looked for the same book on world religions, and found a similar thick book I mistook for it. It was "The Lost Books of the Bible, and the Forgotten Books of Eden." (• Note 34) Haven't read it yet, and don't have time right now, but want to.

JUST DOWN THE ROAD Dec. 2,95
A dream of a friend, "Rick" ate a piece of bread. He said it tasted burnt. He jumped off the board that was across the river, toward the big rock in the river's center, but it was too far, and so jumped in the water. When I first met him there, the thought, "There is no reason to travel far away to be happy, I feel right at home here."
This was just down the road, and all that was needed to be happy was some warm cloths, a back pack, some food, and maybe a book. Later that evening I met Rick for the first time in over a month, and told him about the dream. He said I probably saw his car on the road, and that is why. I said it wasn't true, and they give psychic dreams all the time. My other brother had even gone away on a journey, and this was similar like in the dream, where I felt I could be happy here.
Later a dream of a small circle like a silver dime being pressed with two small bars, and some silver solder is on it still molten, but seems to harden right when inset. The scene tried to happen twice, and did on the second time. An inlay piece was pressed into a fret board of a guitar or small wood plaque. There was a small pearl or brass diamond shaped inlay on the right, and a small gold or brass rectangle on the left.
Later that morning, the flat picking guitar contest was playing on the radio. This meant they were at the fullness of their study.
The small diamond inlay meant the richness that goes along with the suffering, as in the diamond crystals on the wine glass, that must circle around the whole glass. (I had been reading about that just yesterday, when going over the story about sitting at God's table, re- studying that. The light shining through the glass made that one perfect diamond sparkle, and is connected to the wine, blood, or passion.)
The two stripes of purple are also related to the color of blood, it seems, as in the saying "You have earned your stripes." The number ten means fullness, as in the dime, and is silver like the moon, meaning it reflects. The rectangle holds the secret of the golden mean spiral, found throughout all nature, and must relate to building, or "to build."
That evening while typing, there were matching words on the TV, and words as I typed. One was "road," and also "cool." Later a song on the radio: "I keep holding on," and right then I was typing "handhold." (These words relate certain dream scenes, before the girl in mirror dream, way back towards the beginning of the book, that I happened to be re-typing at the time. "Road" and "cool," were from the scene of me at the summer camp, that was a recurring dream. That's where I got tar on my shirt, and worried it was spreading.) Later "hallway" matched on the TV and typing. All these words matched at the very "exact" time, and in less then a hour period. Obviously they can delete out time, without you realizing.

SHAPE SHIFTERS Dec. 3,95
Before awakening, saw an image of a Kachina doll that flashed from an Eskimo mythic carving face, to a sitting duck or big beaked stuffed doll, or something. It was a type of hologram where two pictures mixed in one scene at the same time, or one was more clear a split second after. Mythical characters changed from one to another.
Later I got up and stirred the coals of the fire, and saw how the draft pulled the leaky smoke from a rusty chimney up out the upper square vent of the trailer, the chimney also passed through.
Was still real tired from typing all night, and went back to bed at noon. In a half sleep I saw a image of a big flickering flame in a low pot, like at an offering in a shrine.
Then I thought of some bad parts in my writing that showed fault in character, and was feeling guilty about that. Then saw a vague image of two brake lights that seemed to be glowing on the back of a vehicle. (Thought it meant to stop feeling guilty.)
A little later was an image of tapping my small tin stove bottom, when it was upside down, checking it out and seeing that it had some rust pits all the way through the metal, but sounded solid, like it would hold water.
A little later is a vague image of my blue towel laying on the floor by the stove, like I was standing there naked. (Was puzzled and couldn't figure it out.)
Then a image of digging in the hot ashes and fishing out a still burning un-burnt smoldering stick, that started glowing and burning some in areas. Kept thinking "What could it mean?" Thought back about the flame, and that it must mean transformation. The smoke headed upward toward heaven, and the water must be the same somehow; or the water was like the flame, and was God's word. Thought the stick was like a penis. Then realized that I used a shallow pot to pee in last night, and it is similar to the pot with the flame, seen in the early image.
Then a image of a woman's two breasts in a bra, or just bulging. (Thought it meant to nurture, and related to water, but was puzzled.)
Then the thought "Shape shifters" came, and I thought it meant God's word and fire were similar somehow, and were transformers. The penis being a rod of power, and recalling the stove that could hold water even with holes in it, made me think water and fire were somehow the same, and were transformers and shape shifters, like the kachina doll and masks.
Then an image of a person with baseball hat running towards the base, and across, turning off to the side, like just making a home run. The thought "Home run" came, and I knew it was maybe figured out finally. (Maybe home run means something else.)
Later realized that Fire, like God's word, transforms and changes bad character or habits. That connected the stoplight's image.
The water in the pee pot, ("or stove.") Recall the stove can hold water image) was similar to water being fire. It was a shape shifter. The burning stick like penis is a shape shifter tool, and the pee or water was like, or was what fed the flickering shape shifting flame in the bowl, (or stove.) Both fire and water were the same, like the two different masks of the mythic figures. (Relates to water in stove dream image of Nov.18, 1994, and also the Katerina Witt skating on thin ice telepathic thought of Nov. 22,95. The square vent hole in the roof of the trailer, that the smoke leaked out of was the shape of the cross, and is a symbol of sacrifice and transformation.
The women's breasts were the water that fed the new shape. The number "two" can be seen in the Breasts, stoplights, shape shifters of fire and water, and masked Kachina dolls. Each Kachina or mythic character stands for a certain aspect of life.
About ten minutes later, after being awake, I saw an Eskimo mask on TV, advertising a show on myths. A little while later saw a girl in a bathing suit on the top, showing her breast's. The fact these two scenes are in the future, (Psychic clues) means that the shape shifters will carry on the process.
Had read a while back in the book "Abduction's" by John Mack, that the kachina dolls were related to shape shifters, but it talked of the aliens themselves as being the shape shifters in that they could appear or change to many forms, such as animals or other odd beings, vehicles, or lights. The fact that they can alter your reality, and even mix with the spirit of an animal could make this possible, but I'm not sure if it is really beyond that. They can materialize, or disappear I have heard, but am not sure how.

SITTING ON THE BIG ROCK
About a week ago, I typed all night, and it seemed I didn't get very much done for the amount of time, and wonder if there was really some missing time. I didn't really notice the clock for awhile and am not sure if this is true. It just seems it was such a long time for hardly any typing being done.
About over two years ago, when still trying to get to know the spirit, when they would speak only rarely, but I knew they were there, and I was not used to them, I went to other libraries, and looked for all the many books on religious experience of people who wrote about God. I was looking for others who had contacted spirits. I was going through a phase of a deep lost feeling, where I wanted to contact them, and was still getting used to the shock of all that had happened. I found the book of Swedenborg's journal of dreams, where he was visited by God back in the 1760's. (• Note 35.)
There was a time when I sat on top of a big boulder with that book, and was reading the part where God first came to him and shook his hand. There were a lot of turmoil dreams, and odd shaking nights before God ever came to him. It was a little different from my case, but it was amazing to read another story at that time.
I sat on that big boulder hoping they would come back and speak more, and always wanted to see a flying saucer. It was so much different then, when I was still getting used to when they would visit in my dreams.
It took a while before I really got serious on the letter writing project, and there were times when they never spoke, and I wanted to contact them. Later they came back with the uncovering of the scary visits of the past, and it was like a whole new shocking visit all over again, but was that much easier to handle, because of the first visit that left me in love with them, as when a child.
Just thinking back, it is amazing how I know them so much more now, and never would of expected it to become what it did. I would of felt abandoned if they had not come back. The day I sat on that big rock, was the same day I found the dragon's lair. (See Nov.13, 94)
I wonder what the future holds. It seems they just play it by ear, as how to speak, and to slowly introduce me to further mysteries. I have read many more books since then, (when sitting on the rock) and have a bigger overall view of what is going on in the world, especially after starting to listen to Art Bell's Dreamland radio talk show, 780 on the AM dial every Sunday at seven o'clock. It is called "From the kingdom of NI.

SEVEN CROWS ON A SAUCER COUCH Dec. 4,95
Late that night, I read over the earlier part of the story, and felt it was very poorly written, and got depressed, thinking nobody would want to print it. Was walking at night up to the winery returning the computer, and feeling really down, like the whole project wasn't good enough. The thought "trauma" came when just entering the winery at five in the morning.
Later when walking out the driveway, right in front of the big house, "Crown Prince" came. (That made me feel a lot better. Them saying I was special, meant the story was good anyway.)
Later after walking back, and then entering my gate, the thought "Shape shifter" came.
A little further down the driveway, "Deadbeat" came. (Must mean I changed, and was walking the beat at night, dead in the cause of telling the story.)
Later a dream of standing out at the gate of the big house with my brother, and saw a warped square silver craft in the night sky, like a couch, that said "NASA" on it. It was right over us and then picked up speed real fast and streaked to the south. Then saw the same scene over again, like a replay. (I actually saw this same idea, but was different, very early in the book. The first time it was the shape of a different couch, with pillows extending like a kite. (See the earlier chapter titled "Summer Camp.")
Later saw an image of a group of seven crows in a perfect small circle formation fly over the exact spot in the driveway in front of the big house, where the thought "Crown Prince" was heard. The two crows in the front, and the two in back, were kicked back like they were riding on a magic carpet, with their heads leaning to the outside on their propped arms, (wings) and legs folded one over the other, just like people relaxing on a couch. They were like cartoon character crows. The two crows in back were actually facing backwards of the direction of flight, and reclining on their backs. The three crows across the center of the saucer shape were doing the flying, and the two cartoon crows at the front were also laying on their backs, facing inward, leaning back on a invisible couch or carpet, and weren't even flying. (Must mean my job is as easy as other people's, and is important too.)
An usher girl in a black dress is paging a dorkey insecure looking guy sitting in the upper more expensive cushy seats of the theater. Maybe a phone call, or ?. The guy was me with the look on my face of a girl I used to really like, that seemed innocent, but with repressed anger, because she never knew her dad, and was raised by her aunt. The theater had deep red carpet, and curtains everywhere.
Was thinking of the preacher at the SDA big fancy church, and how I missed talking to him, and wanted to give the secrets. Then saw an image of a right hand with three gold rings: two on the index and one on the baby finger. The hand is stroking a small pocket bible. (Had talked to other deacons there, and had saved the head preacher for later; in case he found me unfavorable. At least some there would have heard.)
Was thinking of my writing style, how it needs improvement, and can it be good enough. Saw an image of pushing a baby carriage out the door of a house, and laying on the wood floor under where the carriage was, was a gray computer disk, like the one I have the story on. (Must mean to not leave the story, or my baby behind, when going out into the world. It want's to see the world.)
Once later, during the day, was the thought "Academic standard." (Means to rework the story to make it up to standards.)
Black and white clothes under the tin where I thought the skunk was hiding.
Food by the fireplace in my moms house, I try to avoid, but took the dog dish, and have bad feelings towards her.
A black man by the religious section at the library reading books. (Meant I was the powerful black and white skunk, and needed to correct faults.)
A bald scooter tire rolling into the creek, (meant to watch out for bald tires and slippery roads.)
Awoke and later that morning, drove the scooter out the driveway, and when approaching the main road the thought "Shark attack" just came out of the blue. Was worried it meant to not get run over by a car. I turned left up the road to check the mail, and right around the first small corner came swooping a brand new really low Corvette, going fast, that looked just like a shark. I laughed and said "Jeeze, that's funny." It's so amazing sometimes. ( Coming from the left means unconscious, or coming from the "other side.")
Later when heading into town, saw two crows fly in a pair right over. (Two means church) Then recalled the seven cartoon crows in the saucer pattern, of the dream this morning. (Seven means wisdom.) In the dream, they flew over the place where I heard "Crown Prince" when walking in the early morning the night before, when upset, and depressed. This means that in the past I suffered and became the crown prince, and gained wisdom, which was actually easy, (as in the four of the seven crows just sitting on the couch) because I am sleeping a lot when they speak. I just have to write it down. The two crows flying over the next day, (psychic connection) means that in the future the secrets they gave will be the church. (Black crows, mean powerful unseen birds.)
Early that evening when half asleep, saw an image of a white cop car with a single red light on top, coming around the same slight corner where I saw the shark corvette car. Saw this image when in a dream image, just coming out of the "right angle" driveway. This was one fact I overlooked earlier. The right angle driveway has been used many times in dreams showing when they came to me. The parallel dimension is at a right angle to this one. Shark attack is still the trauma and depression I sometimes feel, and they just want me to know where those feelings come from. Even though I did have a rough childhood, and it's from that, I don't really blame anyone. If they feel guilty, that's not my problem anymore. The white cop car means the purity. They are really the good guys, in helping me overcome bad, but can be a repressed shark attack feeling. The right angle is where we meet, and is like being stopped by a cop. (The fact it is approaching on the left, means it's coming from the unconscious, just like the earlier real life corvette, when I heard the "shark attack," a little before seeing it, when just pulling out the "right angle" corner.
What is amazing, is they can pick the perfect clues to the best riddle, that goes on over period of time, because they see every possible scenario, by seeing three or more days into the future.

THE NEST CHAIR Dec. 5,95
Eyes hurting with headaches. Heard "Pepper spray." (Pepper is black and powerful.)
Heard the numbers, 28 and then 84. (After studying this, I found that three times 28 = 84. Three means purpose. Four times 7= 28. Seven means wisdom and four a cross. Four times 21= 84. Three times 7=21. Here the number three and four is seen again. The fact that it is seen twice, gives the number "two' as in church. The number "1" as in once I heard this, and 2,3,4, and 7 are seen. Four (cross) of these numbers added up equal 10 (fullness), and the "fifth" which is 7 makes 17, a special number. Five is Gods secret number; the five pointed star seen in visions and images.)

A dream image of water dripping through a nail hole in the tin roof of my shed trailer, and is landing on a nest shaped deeply cushioned wicker chair. (The type with the steel frame, and circular wicker nest shape. I don't have one, but we had one when younger.)
Image of some lines of words typed on a screen or paper, looked like my story was redone with more paragraphs, some underlined words, and a bolder head title line.
Then an image of the writing, with a "nest" paragraph, which is three lines being inset. (I learned about this last night, when studying how to run the computers "tools" program. It is even called the "nest" paragraph creating tool, and is explained by the computer's "help balloons button."
Then, while still seeing the nest paragraph image, I also see a vague penis there below the nest a little.
Image of a muscular weight lifter who is walking out on stage, and I see then that he has long hair and is slighter, and in a white dress with red polka dots. He is a girl, and I'm slightly confused.
Image of two people having sex. (Must mean God's word, or water, or sperm, is the man; and me receiving the message or laying the eggs, and sitting on the wet chair, and making nest paragraphs etc., is the story being hatched by the women. The idea of "Christ is the bride of the church" is seen. This is why one can become homophobic when being visited. Obviously, this is similar to having a baby. It's our baby, and it will live.)
A little later an image of digging in my garden, and a big fat potato pops out of the soft soil. (Mistook what it meant, thinking maybe to harvest or ?...)
Then saw in the darkness the view shift, like the dark hazy rough square of your total vision becomes blurry for a quarter second, as it "zoom" shifts to the right. You can feel it as much as seeing it. (Means to think for another meaning, because the first one is wrong.)
Then an image of a very big green field seen from behind the fence by the road in the Central Valley. A scene that's part of my past. (Must mean to plant the fat potato, so it will cover the whole field of the Central Valley. It was hatched in my garden. Might of meant to eat the potato.)
Later is an image of my small tripod stand standing in the driveway between the two trees at the entrance gate of the big house and winery. The dish for the flame oil, sitting on top of the tripod stand, was turned upside down, meaning that my flame wouldn't burn there. (I don't need to work at the winery, because I'm too busy working for Jeeze. This is the same place where the scene of my brother and I were out there and saw the couch shaped silver "NASA" space ship zoom to the south. This means they are riding on the earth's space ship, and I'm riding with the black crows saucer gang, and there is no reason to feel left out or jealous. What is amazing is that in the office of the winery there is a big picture of the astronauts floating around outside a space ship with padded looking white big open hatches, and the blue sky of the earth's upper atmosphere in the background. The fact that I was just retyping earlier parts of the story, where I have seen black birds flying out of the corner of my eye relates to this. Had also talked about how animals sometimes seem to be under the control of the spirit.
They (my brothers) are riding the earth ship, and I the spirit ship that goes undercover. The tripod stand with oil lamp setting in the entrance of the driveway between the two trees, and at the gate, shows the number one, two, and three. (Means to not use the shape shifter flame or penis rod, of water life giver, at the church door. The tripod holds or delivers the shape shifter. Like the trinity it needs three legs to stand. One leg is from God, one is from the spirit, like the middle man who's undercover, and one is the messenger. The two trees or two doors are the entrance way for the church's one road or path.
Saw male body builders on TV yesterday. (This ties into the muscular girl in the pink polka dot dress. The fact it was seen yesterday means that in the past I had strength, and lifted the weight on stage, and am the bride of the church, for tomorrow.)
Planted some onions in the garden today, and cooked some potatoes. (This ties into the potatoes dream. Means the strength from the past will be planted and eaten in the future. I didn't eat potatoes just because of the dream, and besides, the potatoes were to be planted in the dream image. I did plan on planting onions anyway.
Usually most psychic dreams will catch you by surprise and will be a little different than the actual event. Sometimes you won't even remember it until you see the connection.

GIVING A RIDDLE
It seems that right before a series of images for a riddle, there will be a deeper dream they give with a seemingly very important message. You wake out of it left trying to remember but can't, and get a little upset at the lost material. Then the vague images come while half awake, one every thirty seconds, more or less, depending on how fast you get it right, or part right. This gives you time to think about each image. The first forgotten important dream is a way of saying "Get ready and remember." This happened yesterday also.
During the time the clues are being given, I go through the process of whirring wheels in my head, trying to figure it out. When a new clue comes, it can be fit in, or recalled until later, at least. They know every thought, and will try to steer me sometimes with a new clue that helps fix the missed one, or by using the side shift, begin again method. They can just let it slide, and hope I can see it later, which usually happens. Some hidden riddles weren't seen until way later, when retyping. Some were missed, and another with a double meaning wasn't seen for a few years, (as in the purple aliens head vision at the lake.) There must be others that are missed.
Sometimes the riddle clues go back to previous recent nights clue facts, and sometimes way back to old scenes in past dreams, or scenes from your past life. A lot of the symbols are basic ideas, and are similar anyway, and just fit a new riddle so well. A riddle's clues usually relate to current events in your life, that span only three days; maybe because beyond this it gets hard to keep track. Old events can be brought up, especially if you are rereading or retyping old riddles. Then they fall into current events again. Sometimes an old odd clue is drawn out of the hat.
Later after a riddle sequence is done, and you have got it pretty much right, right then will appear a small bright black dot that glows slightly blue around the edges, and is seen in the darkness behind the closed eyes. It is darker in the center than all the other blackness, and it has the faint fuzzy glow around it. There can also be a small bright blue, light blue, or red spot, meaning "a new outlook," and "to stop," I think. This has been done in the past. The blue dot is most common. When looking at the sky in daylight, a white dot has been seen. Another time when looking out a window, a white dot was seen. Once a purple dot was seen in a friend's garden when I talked about Robinson Crusoe. This means passion. Dots of blue light can appear on the computer screen after an important thought, which means to reflect on that again, or means "yes" to a thought. This is kind of like the "beep" in the ear, as a way of speaking, but can give assorted meanings, because of the different colored dots. There have been a few yellow dots also a long time ago, but am not sure what it meant. Maybe poison. That was when they first started doing it, and maybe it meant it is a new way of speaking. The dark spot must mean "You have hit it on the mark," as in unseen power. The blue dot means industrious. There was also a brighter small sparkling orange light that skittered across the trailer ceiling, on the very first night before the main encounter. This must relate to fire, bl